way back to rainbow

2009-11-13T16:00:00.000+08:00

091109 i love this date to e max :D
first date w babylimzisheng(:
i love himvmuchmuch(:
thanks God i got him(:
<33s

2009-11-02T17:43:00.000+08:00

Drop to normal academic due to my lazyness.
i played throughout this whole year, yes i wasted this year doing nothing.
thats what i get. like fuck sia. nxt yr peoples take O i take N ..
what if N fail? then ite lehs..
don't know luhs, feels soso dumb now.
waste one more year :s
no mood la.

2009-10-29T23:07:00.000+08:00

Shattered hearts again. I don't know how to save it. Feeings died. I'm numb to everything.
I'm sick and tired everything. lies and liars. fuck off from me.

I couldn't count how many pieces of shattered heart if you leave me.

2009-10-27T15:44:00.003+08:00

don't go away, don't leave my heart.

i fear of losing you, seriously.
i can't sleep without yr calls, yr msgs.
you don't knw how much you're imprt to me now.
you're important to me.
you're.

独家记忆

喜欢一个人看下大雨

没联络孤单就像连锁反应

想要快乐都没力气

雷雨世界像场灾难电影

让现在的我可怜到底

对不起谁也没有时光机器

已经结束的没有商量的余地

我希望你是我独家的记忆

摆在心底不管别人说的多么难听

现在我拥有的事情

是你是给我一半的爱情

我喜欢你是我独家的记忆

谁也不行从我这个身体中拿走你

在我感情的封锁区

有关于你绝口不提没问题

雷雨世界像场灾难电影

让现在的我可怜到底

对不起谁也没有时光机器

已经结束的没有商量的余地

我希望你是我独家的记忆

摆在心底不管别人说的多么难听

现在我拥有的事情

是你是给我一半的爱情

我喜欢你是我独家的记忆

谁也不行从我这个身体中拿走你

在我感情的封锁区

有关于你绝口不提没关系

我喜欢你是我独家的记忆

摆在心底不管别人说的多么难听

现在我拥有的事情

是你是给我一半的爱情

我喜欢你是我独家的记忆

谁也不行从我这个身体中拿走你

在我感情的封锁区

有关于你绝口不提没限期

2009-10-23T19:04:00.002+08:00

I FEEL MY LIFE IS DAMN

FKUP NOW.

JustFkOffFromMe.

INeedSlience.

INeedToBeAlone.

Tyvm.

2009-10-22T19:16:00.001+08:00

i dreamed about something funny ytd night. i dreamed that one teacher give me one durian mookcake and i was like overjoyed luhs.
and later i realised that mooncake for what? i thought mooncake festival over already?
then i throw into rubbish bin..
In reality, i hate mooncakes!
I know that was a silly dream >.<

today ==> result processing day): (shit!)
tmr gg to marina barrage for humanities field trip w class.
haha:/ i think that's the last chance going out with 3e4..
cos who knows.. you know.. i will drop to na...
alamak. i don't want things to change.
i feels like punching, hitting, kickin something now.
i just feels like screaming, hitting everything that's at my sight now.

2009-10-21T14:37:00.001+08:00

I fkin hate my results.

fk off from me man.

all bullshit la.

2009-10-20T22:15:00.001+08:00

I'm so so so sad.

don't want go school :p bleah.
i fkin don't wan receive my result.
i know this cfm drop na le.

I'M SICK LARH. 39DEGREES-.-!

2009-10-19T19:30:00.000+08:00

Lazzy to post (:

2009-10-18T12:30:00.000+08:00

Wow. long time no post le.

okay basically exams are finally over.  CLAPS*

but overall i think i did quite badly.

i don't wan drop to na ):

i don't even want to receive my result on tue.

Friday

--------

After e last paper, brought some eye masks and went home sleep as i'm super tired.

wake up > dinner > online > sleep again.

super tired after exams. pheeeeeww.

Saturday

---------

Meetups with christy , shopping , church , meeting with leong .

& Happy Birthday to Jess and Shan (:

Today

--------

Rotting at my aunt house? idk lehs.

God, rescue me.

2009-10-07T16:49:00.008+08:00

whywhywhywhy?

why everything i thinks,the result is completely different?

can you tell me everything is fake?

please. please.

i rather i doesn't know anything at all.

went into bathroom, seriously unable to control the tears.

another breakdown.

is God fooling me or motivating me to be stronger?

我恨我爱你

面带微笑离开你怀里

我听从由命

最后一张王牌在手里

二选一的机率

不能放纵爱你

就放过自己

爱情已经过了甜蜜期

多说也是无益

爱不爱我己经没关系

一点小伤而已

你可以很放心

我不会为了留你

假装可怜兮兮

都怪我 太不争气

我恨我爱你

Oh~ 我爱你

只是因为你是你

Oh~ 我恨你

你有我看也看不清的小聪明

你有我说也说不完的坏脾气

你有我数也数不尽你的…

.新恋情

爱情已经过了甜蜜期

多说也是无益

爱不爱我已经没关系

一点小伤而已

你可以很放心

我不会为了留你

假装可怜兮兮

都怪我 太不争气

我恨我爱你

Oh~ 我爱你

只是因为你是你

Oh~ 我恨你

你有我看也不清的小聪明

你有我说也说不完的坏脾气

你有我数也数不尽你的…

.新恋情

没关系…

我有你拿也拿不走的旧回忆

我可以一个人安静的忘记你

我恨你最后那一句

我爱你

nice song (:
enjoy !

eoy hcl - chimm!

2009-10-07T00:39:00.003+08:00

Hoooray!

I've completed two papers already(:

Today's higher chinese was a tough paper.

really tough paper i tell you. hmmm.

is like every sentence i got words chimmm till i don't get what it means,

have to guess and guess the meaning. 

even liuyu and syvia ( pro in chinese one ) say damn diffcult.

and and, guess what?

peirce take the exactly same paper as us,

same ques,everything same.

so cao lao shi and peirce teachers come up the papers together.

got the information from shixian, she say is cluster (combine papers)

hahahahaas!

had extra maths lesson,

then go prime>guide house>library with ling.

then > home .

revised chem for acids and bases test tmr(:

sleep le zzzzzzzz !

byeee.

却在你未来缺席 .

2009-10-05T23:53:00.006+08:00

缺席 - 黄靖伦

爱只剩下躯壳
为什么还不放手却拉扯
是我不甘心还是不舍
为何我还在固执的拔河

其实我真的很难过
只是难过都沦为沉默
可能我真的不懂得让你更快乐

我想和你在一起却在你未来缺席
给你的爱那些美丽
已长成藤蔓缠着我的生命
在你的未来缺席
像是一出剧本未完待续
预留伏笔把未完成从容继续
如果还有如果就算瞬间老去毫不犹豫

爱是不是都一样
无论多漫长终究曲终人散
可是我不想因为不敢却步沮丧
然后半途收场

其实我真的很难过
只是难过都沦为沉默
可能我真的不懂得让你更快乐

我想和你在一起却在你未来缺席
给你的爱那些美丽
已长成藤蔓缠着我的生命
在你的未来缺席
像是一出剧本未完待续
预留伏笔把未完成从容继续
如果还有如果拥抱你不犹豫

能不能将你的样子忘掉
舍不舍得爱让我控制不了
只想要把你拥抱
其实爱上一个人没有解药
我的静脉流着爱陪你到老
原来我还会微笑

我真的想和你在一起却在你未来缺席
在你的未来缺席
像是一出剧本未完待续
预留伏笔把未完成从容继续
如果还有如果就算瞬间老去毫不犹豫

Today.

had English papers.

extra poa lesson and then homed.

sleep as i'm super tired.

i don't know what to prepare for tmr's chinese essay!

intend to rmb the formatsof informa&formal letter writing only.

hais,language papers know then know.

don't know is you suay de mah. 

correct?

off to sleep zzzzz!
i still can't stop thinking about the past.
i'm still procrastinating about the things i shouldn't.
now is certainly not the right time.
buck up my studies! jyjyjy.

2009-10-04T19:58:00.000+08:00

LET ME BELIEVE ONE MORE TIME :D

2009-10-03T23:39:00.002+08:00

Blogger's standard falls nowadays.

even uploading photos took so long man.

so long till i gave up.

actually want to upload my 15th birthday's photos.

oh yesh, i admit i don't have enough patience to wait for this kinda thing.

okays, fast blogging as i am going to study later.

2009-10-02T23:25:00.004+08:00

Struggled.
Speechless.
procrastinating.
missinglove. 

confused.
memories.
infatuation?

2009-09-29T23:02:00.006+08:00

Okay, recently many complex things happened.

Hmmmm. sometimes i do think what the feeling'll be if i happens to see him again.

What will happen? what will he react? will i just smiled and walked away if this situation occurs?

Will i stutter some words to talk and attract his reactions?

I thought everything isn't that worse. But what i really thinks was really wrong.

Those memories painted in my mind. Its like a eraser suddenly lost its function.

Of course, w couldn't take over his position in my <3.

Esp missed& loved the word silly.

missed& loved the way he rushed me kup the phone and sleep.

missed& loved those long nightalks over e phone.

missed& loved the way he want me to eat my medicine.

missed&loved the way he don't want me to skip my meals.

missed& loved the way he sent me off at the bustop.

missed&loved the way he made me laughs nonstop, cheeer me up.

missed&loved the way he gave me throat lozenges.

It's like a eraser losing its function.

Imissyoooou.

<333.

Believe no one but yourself.

2009-09-26T14:47:00.002+08:00

S-T-R-E-S-S out :/
everytime problems come , it will be like a flow , one by one ..
so yeah , finally i know the truth . so yeah , a lesson learnt .
i finally learn three words : BELIEVE IN YOURSELF .

15th birthday

2009-09-26T00:50:00.001+08:00

Offically Fifteen (:
Thanks those who wished me Happy Birthday.
Thanks guides for singing birthday song for me.
Thanks for the monkey bday present as well.
Thanks for bday cards ( Jiaqi & meiyi each )

But unexpectly, i finally know the truth which isn't quite a happy stuff.
what a super mighty great fall this time round.

Brunt

2009-09-24T21:42:00.002+08:00

STRESS , THAT FEELING IS SO WEIGHTY .

EMOTIONAL , ANXIETY , TIGHTNESS , DREAD

EXAMS FASTER END !

2009-09-24T02:09:00.001+08:00

run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away run away
& i don't ever want to turn back.
eat you apart
outsides hurting
insides falling apart.

thats really whatt i thinking now.
nothing going to bothers me now.
heck it.

Yonglin 10th bday(:

2009-09-22T19:27:00.001+08:00

should do some fast blogging now as i gonna have my dinner soon :x !
oh yeah, today's my lil bro 10th bday (:
Happy Birthday to this Xiao Shuai Ge :D
wowww, this month so many birthdays eh . haha .

Byeee , peoples !

lucas 1st year bday

2009-09-20T01:55:00.000+08:00

Okays fast blogging now(:
things turn out so suckzxxy.
i know myself well enough i tend to bottle everything out,
and then when i can't tahan already, it will be like a volcano BOMMMB OUT!

Anyway, earthlings, today's my younger cousin, Lucas Lim's 1st year Bday:D
Happy Birthday Mr Naughty (:

2009-09-17T20:35:00.000+08:00

因为真正爱过 , 才痛 .

2009-09-16T16:23:00.000+08:00

Today, stayed at home to study. Didn't go school again as my eyes still v pain and red.
The tears keep coming out. Om, use tons of tissue, i eventually use finish the whole box of tissue :x !
Gotta study vhard for the coming eoyes le as i'm lagging behind.
Jiayous peoples for coming eoyes :D
I tell myself, i wasted more than half of the year slacking, rotting,
let's just chiong whatever i can to promote to 4E this time.
Yes, i finally wake up. I really hope is not too late.
I used to say i want go 4a nxt yr, but now, nooo way.
I need to go 4e with KJD :D
Let's just mug very hard this 3 weeks, then i can enjoy.
Targeting at least a passing grade for maths.
I have done so many things that disappointed the loved ones around me.
I knew i dishearten them.
I'm gonna use this last chance to prove something that i can study when i want.
So let' c'man !
Studying (:

2009-09-15T14:23:00.000+08:00

Eye infection ):
I cried till eye infection , wtheck !
Mc two days. sianzzxx . going back school tmr .
I just need to cheerup now .
Tears ,breakdowns seems nothing to me already .
Thanks ah , you made me learn how to be stronger , at the same time weak-ing me .

2009-09-11T19:06:00.001+08:00

Hohohoho !
Holidays gonna end le .
At least after holidays i got something to keep me busy from wild thoughts ?
Hahaa . I'm just totally shag . I wondered how was you now .
Going to have my dinner le (:

2009-09-10T19:10:00.002+08:00

blogger is such lousy nowadays .
suddenly feels like switching to onsugar ,
cos blogger got probs uploading pics . & one other reason - memories .
considering ba .

After viewing the brave girl's blog , really admired the bravness she had .
Let's take a break for a longer journey (:

2009-09-08T13:22:00.001+08:00

shop still under construction !
Anyw, here's the link for our blogshop :

www.dynamic-shoppingcraze.onsugar.com

2009-09-05T20:06:00.005+08:00

Hey lovelies (:
Opening a blogshop with bestie , Shira :D
Opening soon , do support !

We enter relationships as a somebody who ~~care much more enough~~ and leave as a nobody .
when will you _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ to me ?

2009-09-03T22:29:00.000+08:00

Holidays here i come :D !
Have to study for maths retest on mon .
Wish me goodlucks (:
Sat&Sun - i'm booked ;D
Girlfriends occupied my life now .
hearts you girls man <3 .

Sweet night , peoples !

you're there

2009-09-01T00:15:00.001+08:00

Ellos (:
Let's summarise the days i haven't blog about .

Saturday - rotting at home ? Doctor.
Sunday - Cookie baking for Teachers'Day @ Denise'house w kelly :D

Today , i was late for school again :x
I was damn sleepyyy , can't wake up eh .
Chiong to school , had cross country in the early morning .
kjdx said all walk together .
In the end , started to jog and run back to school with Denise .
We pangseh kelly & joan . sorryeas:x !
I got 35th position don't know upon ninty plus students i think ..
That's lousyyy .
Celebration stuffs like that , spreading the love of handmade cookies proudly done by three of us to teachers :D
Disiaoooed kelly cos of her one jar of cookies for her *ahmm*
Then , meet shixian with meiyi back to pcps(:
Lee lao shi became more and more handsome hor ! :x haha .
Mrs low wasn't there as she wasn't feeling well , thats sad ):
Eat our lunch there , and it was like super cheap (:
Toured around , primary school memories flash back .
Time flew so fast , we're now sec3s .
Looking back at those times i struggled with my studies ,
all became worth it as well . i have almost complete my sec school education
with one year left (: one more year, must well chiong to the best :x !

life , there're always more things ahead waiting for me to discover .

as what sisters say , i deserve someone better .

so let's see who will be the charming prince to sew those cuts on the heart .

let nature takes its course and time will prove i've got over you .

sickkyy

2009-08-28T22:02:00.000+08:00

Relinked/linked peoples :D

Laxxyyy wake up ,
Went to see doc .
Went to school for poa (:
Collected my lousy phone , now okay le (:
Trained to dg to go plaza sing with kelly , denise .
Went to Diaso for some diy materials to make TD present .
Homed , bathed & chiong to jo's house for cell group .
Dinnered .

I surrendered all to God .
I'll just do my part & let him finish the rest (:

2009-08-28T16:15:00.000+08:00

Super hateeeeeeees it .
Let's continue in this way .
Cos it will become a useful tool driving you away from my mind .
I gained more freedom (:
Haha . I've tried my very best to cheerup .
Thanks girlfriends , friends for cheering me up .
:D

hohoho

2009-08-27T17:35:00.000+08:00

Ear pain , f***ing infection ):
Seeing doc tmr .
sianzxzzz , gotta eat medicine for another one month again .
I know e doc surely give me antibiotic .
That time p6 kena also give me 1mth medication .
This time second round .
Damn painpainpain !

Oh today went j8 with the usual clique .
I laugh until stomacchhh painnn .
Walked around , eat & home .
Don't intend to go guides tmr as i'm visiting the doc .
This month i don't know see how many docs already lor :x

longing for you .

2009-08-25T23:04:00.000+08:00

Craig David - Do You Believe In Love

Just one day
if I could hold you in my arms
Close to my heart where you belong
love of my life you really are
still be showering you with kisses like snow in winter
remember back in the day we were like best of friends
but we were falling in love we never could pretend
night after night we used to talk about me and you
the things we'd do together forever?

Do you believe in love?
and the promise that it brings
that you'll never grow apart
well that's what she said to me
why did you have to go?
we were inseparable
you and me will always be together for eternity

Just one day
if I could touch your face again
words can't describe how I'm feeling
if I could turn back the hands of time
I'd still be holding on wishes that you left behind
remember moments when there was nothing better than
a stroll in the park walking hand in hand
I'll never forget the times we talked about me and you
the things we do together forever

Do you believe in love?
and the promise that it brings
that you'll never grow apart
well that's what she said to me
why did you have to go?
we were inseparable
you and me will always be together for eternity

The words you said to me before you slipped away
are still with me girl to this very day yeah
in everything I do to everything I say
you'll always be the sunshine in my life
and yes I believe in love

Do you believe in love?
and the promise that it brings
that you'll never grow apart
well that's what she said to me
why did you have to go?
we were inseparable
you and me will always be together for eternity

I failed erasing you off my mind .
Those memories flash through my mind .
Everything about you is still in my mind .
I force myself forgeting you .
Very hard till i couldn't catch a breath .
I don't know how long could i hold on .

sunshine + rain = rainbow

2009-08-25T20:09:00.000+08:00

Loads of hw ! arghhhs .
lessons as usual .
got back english and poa .
suprisely i passed my poa and english (:
haha .
byeeee .

"Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it."
-Thomas Fuller

2009-08-24T20:12:00.000+08:00

Love knock me down .
I'm super feeling down inside .
But what can i do ?
I still gotta fake a smile as if nothing happens at all .
Fucking hate that empty feeling in my heart .

continuous 1month , weeks of medicine .
I struggled , bleed to realise it's just a dream .
It's a dream .
I have to wake up from that silly dream .

2009-08-23T21:10:00.000+08:00

Helloo peoples !
finally public my bloggy back .
Weekends was spent with cousin :D
Anyway , phone die on my hand badddly .
Currently using another spare phone .
Oh i think i gonna buy another sony phone .
My budget 400plus .
Gonna work very hard during holidays for that sum of money .
should i buy the china phone which cost 60 bucks(include trade in) ?
or the 400 plus sony phone ?
my contact haven't last one year yet lor !
hmmmm . which is the better choice ?
Tmr school starts at 830(:
I can catch more sleep (:
Lovesick.

i stuck .
even thought i keep saying i've move on ,
how many percent i really move on ?
In a relationship , both was loved & hurted at the same time .
funny isn't that ?

2009-08-20T18:33:00.000+08:00

Irrittattting ! I wanted to public back my blog .
Buttt , no matter how many times i clicked , it doesn't work .
KNS MAN .

Anyw , i doesn't know what i'm going thru now .
what made me change drastically that i myself doesn't even know ?
what made me turns the one i don't wan to ?
why . i don't know how to speak honestly now .
It seems every word came up frm my mouth is all lies , hidings .
I don't know what i bloody wants in my life now .
Confused . Really . Disappointments and disappointments .
How am i going to say the truth ?
I don't this seems-a-deathhyy-issue be a worry in some peoples' life .
I just hope everything is a dreammm .
But what if it's not a dream ?
Who's gonna be the painkiller ?
I used to have one but i don't take it hearty .
And now , it have rejection of me .

2009-08-14T21:29:00.000+08:00

Basically , today's a short school day .
Had english common test today.
And guess what ? the que is on HINI .
Did finish the paper yeah (:
Don't know whether going to pass that paper or flunk it .
I scared too many grammar mistakes . BOOO .

Anyw , didn't really listen what teacher say during lesson .
Let's hope LASTMINSELF-STUDY will help somehow .
Sunday ,17 . I don't know how i'm gonna survive .
I don't want to cry anymore , but couldn't control.

2009-08-13T15:29:00.000+08:00

CommonTest coming .
Stressd:/
Having moodswings , superdown , attitude ppls on tue .
I'm really sorry .
I don't want things to happen in this way too .
I couldn't help it . Sorrrryyyy .

Maybe going to watch movie - xia dao siao with family .
Hmmms . I got back my chem test result - 0/18 :D
What the f sia .
Everytime i wna study yet fall asleep .
After he left my world , i don't have the motivation already .
I felt damn empty in my heart .
Maybe fate is toying with me .

周杰伦 - 回到过去

一盏黄黄旧旧的灯
时间在旁闷不吭声
寂寞下手毫无分寸
不懂得轻重之分
沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影失去平衡慢慢下沉
黑暗已在空中盘旋
该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端
无法存活在真实的空间
想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你看的世界
想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜
想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去
思绪不断阻挡着回忆播放
盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁
想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你看的世界
想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜
想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去
沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影失去平衡慢慢下沉
想回到过去

Is all a lie .

2009-08-08T16:29:00.000+08:00

Phrenz carnival .
happy stuffs & unhappy stuffs .
Let's talk about the happy stuffs .
It's so great seeing our school singing national song in such a united way.
Ohs the atmosphere is so lovely :D
I suddenly rmb what Denise told me ,
BGR relationship can breaks anytime , but FRIENDSHIP always forever (:
Indeed true .
Once bitten , twice shy .
Yesterday went for cg .
went to eat kfc as dinner .
Send kw , yl , hy ,christy to bus stop .
And then walk home .

i miss you lik hell .
i miss yr carings super much .
i just wan you back .
even thought it is just friendship .
when lovers become strangers ,
everything changed .

is that real okay ?

2009-08-06T22:39:00.000+08:00

Lyrics | Papercut lyrics

2009-08-05T22:32:00.000+08:00

f**k the blogger man .
screww up.

beauty.

2009-08-04T20:55:00.000+08:00

We are living in a realistic society where external beauty is important. Sadly, few people pay much attention to "internal beauty" I guess going through an extreme make over is not everything in our life. While we may gain beauty, we may at the same time lost ourselves. It is sad that one's internal beauty can only discover when one becomes beautiful. Not everyone is blessed with beauty , different faces , different peoples make the world interesting . Think about it ,what if one day all of the earthlings become all babes & hunks , not even a ugly duckling . isin't that so common that nobody knows the true meaning of Beauty ? What is more important is to enhanced your internal beauty. Beauty without connotation is like a car without driver.

why i fall that deep this time ?
i super hate it .
why why why .
The wound is even harder to heal while salt was sprinkle over it .

late again .

2009-08-03T18:06:00.000+08:00

Today didn't plan to go schoool at all .
Ytd talk on e phone till quite late .
I still having headache , feels my head so heavy lik dat .
Hahhs , but in the end still have to go .
Cos' Dad said : "Headache is not a excuse for absence."
I was like what the hell :/
usual lesson .
i forget bring my file back .
so yeah no homework ?!
jialat case .
bored .
went home with sandra (:

2009-08-02T22:15:00.000+08:00

blogger sot liao -.-
fuck it man . low blood pressue is killing me .
gna do homework liao (:
don't feel lik going school tmr .

i give up forgeting you , cos i can't .

i don't know how to let go .

i just wan you by my side now .

2009-08-02T00:04:00.000+08:00

I'm eating my supper now yea .
I''m eating alots of junk foods recently .
I didn't gain any weight , instead i lost weight .
Wohahaheeeeeeee ..
I gna start study tmr (:

hey junwen , faster recover alrights <3 !

2009-08-01T14:02:00.000+08:00

This time i cried out .
Embarrasing .
I never been like this before .
But it felt much better after crying .
Everynight , i never fail to hug poohyy to sleep .
I need to learn how to let go .
Cos it's only the last way to say i love you .

2009-07-30T18:49:00.000+08:00

Ohh yeah ! the blogger finally works .
& can someone teach me how to move on ?
i'm stuck . i need to move on , i know .
exams are coming , i can't go on like this anymore .
i tried really very hard . really .
but i seems living in the past , waiting & waiting .
i want to get out of that trap .
someone brought me into a cave safety , every actions ensure that i'm safe & secure ,
with enough warmth , oxygen & love .
but i'm the selfish one letting go the safety jacket for the second time .
bytchh . idk what to do .

Anyw , went dentist today to get my wisdom teeth out .
i didn't know whether i got drug allegy then i say no .
she numb my gum area with one injection .
thanks god i didn't feel anything except the numbness .
but back to class , i noticed some rashes on my hands & leg .
so itchyyy man , i can't stop scratching . i think is drug allegy .
stupid eh , i can't concentrate during e bio test as i keep scratching .
gosh , i think i sure flunk this test & gna get it from Mr peterson .
now still like itchyy eh , maybe gna see doc later .

After sch , went Amk hub with Denise & kelly & Aisyah :)
went to toastbox for our lunch . LAKSA :D !
went artbox , shop around and then home-ed .

"if you really love something set it free. If it comes back it’s yours, if not it wasn’t meant to be.”

I tear you down
I made you bleed eternally
Can't help myself
From hurting you when it's hurting me .

I don't know how to express those deepest feelings from my heart for you .

maybe even it doesn't need at all .

2009-07-29T19:06:00.000+08:00

I hate everything now , now !
i hate it ! i gna anyhow rant out man !
i hate myself more !
i can't forget although i try really v hard .
i'm so mentally tired .
i've enough of my stupid life !
i don't even know what i'm doing this few days !
i need a break , a long break .
i hate it ! i hate everything that's going on right now .
i can't walk out ! i can't at all !
i tried , i really tried my v best to forget & move on .
instead , i'm still wandering on that spot like a lost girl .
it really bleeds this time round .
i don't know how to carry on .
i don't wan care already !

眼泪都哭干了。
心都累了。

photos :

2009-07-28T19:17:00.000+08:00

tired of those medicine .
it only makes me feel so sleepy .
alamak -.-
anyw , ct3 coming le .
gonna do my maths hw , cl hw & some revsion later .
school was kinda entertaining eh . time flies really fast .
wheeeee :D

2009-07-27T17:37:00.000+08:00

心动

有多久没见你
以为你在那里
原来就住在我的心底
陪伴着我的呼吸
有多远的距离
以为闻不到你的气息
谁知道你背影这么长
回头就看到你
过去让它过去
来不及
从头喜欢你
白云缠绕着蓝天
如果
不能够永远都在一起
也至少给我们
怀念的勇气
拥抱的权利
好让你明白
我心动的痕迹
过去让它过去
来不及
从头喜欢你
白云缠绕着蓝天
如果
不能够永远都在一起
也至少给我们
怀念的勇气
拥抱的权利
好让你明白
我心动的痕迹
总是想再见你
还试着打探你的消息
原来
你就住在我的身体
守护我的回忆

I'm back walking alone in the rain .
rain hides those expressions , feelings that i've now .
its too late .

2009-07-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

blogger simply suxxxkkkyyys to da core man .
i hate blogger now . OOOOOOOooooooooo !

today syvia come my house find me . slack .
we took loads of photos , but can't upload to blogger leh ): ! wth .
went j8 have my dinner .
share with her loads of stuffs (:

let go & move on .
no use wandering on that spot (:
that's what syvia told me .
i gotta live better (:
i told aisyah i'll be strong & would't let her worry about me (:
aisyah , i will back to the oh-so-cheerful girl you said .
let time heals .
i believe it will .

jiayous for yr exams , Olvl .
i believe you can live better even without me .
i know i hurt you deeply this round .
Sorry for leaving you without a reason .
Sorry for not giving you and myself another chance .

2009-07-23T18:17:00.000+08:00

Stupid blogger !
LAG EH !

Having 3 class tests tmr .
woahhhh , headache ah .

sorry . i know one simple sorry can't do anything .

2009-07-20T18:27:00.000+08:00

YESH , PRIVATE MY BLOG ALREADY (:

你总爱编织谎言
我负责配合表演
所有改变只为了进入你的世界
这情节重复了一百遍
才发现是你的心太远

你划定楚河汉界
我不能轻易犯规
所有时间都是先给了你优先权
不自觉爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈

爱到妥协到头来还是误解
抱着你不让你飞
历史不断重演我好累
爱到妥协也无法将故事再重现
你也想退后一点我躲在我的世界

你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想再为你掉泪
我了解不会再仍在徘徊
开始自己的明天

爱到妥协到头来还是误解
抱着你不让你飞
历史不断重演我好累
爱到妥协也无法将故事再重现
你也想退后一点我躲在我的世界

i can only close the door & ignore the world .

2009-07-19T14:41:00.000+08:00

101th post ! >.<

Woah , today basically just rotting at home , daydreaming :X
Anyw , i suddenly feels like eating caramel corn .
But lazxyy to buy :P

"Oftentimes we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to. Though that doesn’t mean that we've stopped loving them or we've stopped to care. Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you."

2009-07-17T13:19:00.000+08:00

Today is 170709 , officially 2nd month (:

I'm eating my ytd diner + my breakfast + my lunch = noodle .

Haha , recently sick , no apetite to eat .

Later meeting baby :D !

Baby , thanks for what you wrote on yr blog yea .

Let actions speak those words .

" You will never know love unless you surrender to it."

2009-07-16T15:48:00.000+08:00

HEADACHE , YOU'RE NOT WELCOME !
TYVM .

& tmr is 2nd month .
time flew so fast , and we make it .
we gone thru many things together .
who knows the future ?
i just wanna cherish every sec with you (:

2009-07-15T18:50:00.000+08:00

lazxyyy to post !
byeeee .

2009-07-14T20:54:00.000+08:00

I'm drinking fleshly squeezed orange(:
today end schol at 5 .
whatch a long day .
phewwww .
& many peoples say i keep msging in class .
they say is kinda obvious :P

MATHS TESTS , MATHS TESTS ,& MATHS TESTS .
SCREWWWW UP , ALL MATHS !
~!@!#@$%$^%&^$%

last,butnotleast,3moredaysto2ndmth(:
wowwww,whatwillhegiveme?

2009-07-13T19:56:00.000+08:00

recently saw many people play plurk .
sian thn go made one . hahaaa .
shaggggg !
1st day of eweek almost killed me .
tmr lesson till 5lus again .
tons of tests , hws :/
headache's killing me .
i gna finish my work early & sleep early today .
ohh ya , i need to buy my concealer tmr .

& God please , i don't wna fall sick this week .
this week is full of maths tests and other tests .
i don't wna miss any of e tests or else need to retest again .

Van mummmy faster recover so can see her on sat:D

Baby , misses (:

2009-07-12T20:17:00.000+08:00

UPDATED .
WOWWW , THIS WEEK IS FULL .

MON&TUE:SCH TILL V LATE .
WED:MEETING VAN MY GAN MUMMMY
THUR:MEETING SHAN
FRI:2ND MONTH ANNI .
SAT:SVC
SUN:REVISION,FAMILYDAY.

Baby , 你让我无法自拔爱上你
I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you .

2009-07-09T17:28:00.000+08:00

Today oral was okay i guess ?
got soured by Denise cos she nothing better to do -.-
thanks kelly my mushroom for her ai xin herbal tea yeah :D
what a sweet sister i got (:
there's a quote for her :

"Life is partly what we make it, and partly what it is made by the friends whom we choose." thanksyou(:

& I MISS MY BABY VM NOW !
I WNA FASTER SEE YOU NOW , NOW !
"Love is like a question, without you, the answer is simple to find. However with you, the answer remains a wonder to me,as while i gaze upon you, you answer it for me." :DDD

2009-07-08T17:28:00.000+08:00

LAZZZYYX ..
SLEEPING ZZZ !

2009-07-07T18:07:00.000+08:00

心真的很累很累很累。
为什么？
我只想躲在被窝里痛痛快快大哭一场。

Baby , sorry that i hurt you .
i know i'm not a good stead .
glacing through those msgs , msgs and calls getting lesser & lesser ,
the words we use totally different ,
i then realised we drift further & further away .
sorry .

2009-07-06T13:49:00.000+08:00

Hello .
Things isn't going the right way .
I don't know why .
I so super fucked up right now .
I don't wan things turn up this way .
God , i need your direction .

EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN . DAMN .

2009-07-05T00:24:00.000+08:00

I can't get into sleep , so i'm here to blog(:
Today went svc with baby .
Today i finally felt God's presence .
I struggle , vv xinku .
I finally surrender , i gave my life to Christ again .
After svc we went suntec to eat Dinner(:

Baby , what you going thru now , i have gone thru before . (christianity)
In fact , i going thru the whole process now .
But you're not the only one going thru this .
Cos i'm always there walking beside you .
I know you're so damn stressed out of olvl .
I undst that , i never blame you at all .
Baby , smile (: !
Loves .

2009-07-03T19:29:00.000+08:00

Today school release at 12plus .
Wowwww , no cca is kind of SHIOKK for me
Hahaha .
Discuss class T with class girls after school .
& then went Pot house to celebrate her bday .
Went with Sandra and Cat . We brought a chocolate cake for her(:
After we arrive , Christy , Jiaqi , Peiting , Niki came too .
And lastly still got Devi , she reach first {:
We had pasta & it taste nice although it's cold already .
Sang bday song for today's bday girl , pot !
We sang until halfway then we forget e knife to cut e cake .
Like so super funny :DDD
Btw , Great time (:
Camwhore ! talks ! :xx

Went home w cat and sandra .
That's all for today (:
I hope tmr can go svc cos i miss my van mummmmy DAMN MUCH .

HAPPYBDAY , POT:D
MAY ALL YR WISHES COME TRUE OKAYS!
LOVES(:

Seeing this pic , my heart ache .
i really miss my freaking nice fringe i used to have .
my fringe now super ugly .
arghhhhhs ! i swear i swear .
I think Baby see le , ltr dump me:P

常常我們認為會跟一個人吵架一定是跟他感情不好，其實不然，最容易跟家人吵架，最常跟情人吵架，最會跟好朋友吵架。想想，原來最常跟我們有爭執的人竟然都是跟我們最親密的人，而能夠跟我們發生爭執的人也對我們有一定的瞭解，所以有人常說『吵架』也是一種溝通，而願意跟你吵架的人，才是真正想瞭解你的人。
有時候我們與人發生爭執時會說『算了』，或者『不說了』，這兩句話其實都是殺傷力很強的話，代表著你不想把你的想法跟他說，不想讓對方瞭解你，也代表你們的感情會停留在原地。有時兩個人爭執，忽然聽到了一句話『我是為你好』；在感情的世界裡，每個人都很自私，有人常會對你說『我是為你好』，這其實是很不負責任的說法，因為我們會把自己的觀念加諸在別人身上，為他人決定一些事，但是再想想，對對方來說，這樣的方法真的好嗎？
你為他決定了事情，但是要負責的人卻是他，這是很不公平的，唯有他自己才能決定什麼是對自己最好，若是錯誤的決定也才不會有埋怨，也才能對自己負責。『通常願意留下來跟你爭吵的人，才是真正愛你的人。』
之前聽到陶子在節目中說了一句話'每個人天生就是不一樣'這句話讓我領悟了很多事............ .
因為不一樣~自然而然每個人所看的所想的也不會相同，不要怪別人不夠懂你~換個立場~其實我們也不敢說自己有多了；'無聲'是一種無形的、最遠的距離，若能從吵架中表達出自己的想法解他人，總比大家把話悶在心裡都不說出來的好，但千萬要避免在衝動時說出傷害對方的言語，有些話~一旦說出口~就很難收回了. ......

- taken by a website .

2009-07-02T17:01:00.000+08:00

Ello :D
2days away from com .
Haha .
Today finally can't tahan the life w/out e com .
Anyw , school life's HECTIC .

BYEBYEEEES , TAKING A NAP .
MY PAINKILLER DOESN'T WORK .
IT KILLS MY MOOD .

2009-06-29T20:53:00.000+08:00

1st day of sch yet so tired.
school's kinda boring.
copying,listen to teacher's blahblahblah.
temperature-taking ..
&ohyahs one wk classroom system.
recess has to sit according to class .
one class per bench .
sot luhhs . i wna sit back my usual place uhs!
eat one meal also so man fan :XX

gonna go do my online english hw now.
tmr school till 5plus.
i wna sleep early today(:
:\byeees!

TODAY IS MUMMY'S BIRTHDAY(:
MUMMY , I LOVE YOU:D
thanks for those things you did for me
although sometimes i gave you attitude .
thanks for helping me clearing my mess i did ..
thanks for everything .
although sometimes i tend to rebel against you ,
but i know you wanna the best for me ,
you tolerate my attitude , the xiao jie pi qi i threw .
i still rmb while i was in p1 , i don't eat during recess ,
cos at that time i don't feel the urge to eat and i was underweight .
you come to school to spy on me .
but i was caught by you playing at the monkeybar there playing .
you scold me and accompany me to the canteen .
i was really touched .
i still remember in my pre-school days ,
you worked very hard , you neglect me .
i was given lots of toys and stuffs ..
but what i want at that time ,
what i looking forward everyday is a day off from yr work .
so you can walk to school with me , help me put on my shoes ,
hold my hands and walk to the kindergarden under the bright sun .
i miss those memories .
now , as i grow older , i changed drastically .
i became a rebel that do everything against yr wishes .
cos you don't have enough time for me .
cos daddy also don't have the time for me .
i still remember how hurt you're when i runaway from home during sec1.
but i promised i wouldn't do it again .
let the past be the past .
i know i failed being your obedient daughter .
but i'll try to buck up my attutude and try to obey :X
& hope your wishes to be granted(:
love always ,
wenn (:

2009-06-28T21:28:00.000+08:00

Love is more than three words mumbled before bedtime. Love is sustained by action, a pattern of devotion in the things we do for each other every day." - Nicholas Sparks

2009-06-27T16:42:00.000+08:00

SORE THROAT SUPPPERRR PAINNN !
):

Baby can't meet me today .
He lazxyxx bum lahs him .
I miss him badddly .
ughhhhs !

Baby ,
Life is like rollercoaster ,
Ups , downs , curve , straight ..
During happy times times ,
i'll be there to share with you happiness & joys .
During yr life's darkest period ,
i'll be there to walk beside you , support you .
i'll be there for your listening ear .
No matter what situation ,
i want you to know that i can be the first person you can cried for help ,
i want to the first person you can think of no matter what .

唯一
我的天空多么的清新
透明的承诺是过去的空气
牵着我的手是你
但你的笑容却看不清
是否一颗星星变了心
从前的愿望
也全都被抛弃
最近我无法呼吸
连自己的影子
都想逃避(逃避)
BABY 你就是我的唯一
两个世界都变形
回去谈何容易
确定你就是我的唯一
独自对着电话说我爱你
我真的爱你
BABY 我已不能多爱你一些
是否一颗星星变了心
从前的愿望
也全都被抛弃
最近我无法呼吸
连自己的影子
都想逃避(逃避)
BABY 你就是我的唯一
两个世界都变形
回去谈何容易
确定你就是我的唯一
独自对着电话说我爱你
我真的爱你
BABY 我已不能多爱你一些
BABY 你就是我的唯一
两个世界都变形
回去谈何容易
确定你就是我的唯一
独自对着电话说我爱你
我真的爱你
BABY 我已不能多爱你一些

Baby , you're my one & only (:
I love you :D

2009-06-26T20:52:00.000+08:00

FINALLY.
100 QUESTION QUIZ.

1.Are you single or attached?
Attached!

2.How old are you?
15(:

3.Do you have a person you like?
Yup .

4.What is the name of the person you are in love with?
Junwen .

5.If the person you love and your mother dropped into the sea, who will you save?
I will drop inside also & baby will save me (:

6.Have you ever hugged someone before?
Yesssshh !

7.Do you love your parents?
Yes although sometimes they tend to be overconcern

8.Will you hug the one you love?
Yesh .

9.Are you willing to do anything for your boyfriend/girlfriend?
Yup .

10.Are you jealous now?
No . For ?

11.Who is the last person who messaged you, what is the message?
van . van say huhs ): sian lehs):

12.Who is your clique?
kelly , denise , joan & co .

13.Do you want a baby in future?
not sure .

14.Do you prefer Mac, KFC, Long John Silver, Burger King or coffee shop?
Mac .

15.Do you sniff glue?
No . It stinks .

16.Do you smoke?
Past . Quit le (:

17.If your boyfriend/girlfriend is a two-timer, what will you do?
I will slap him .

18.If you found out you have a disease, what will you do?
Pretend nothing happen . just stay happy (:

19.Which cca are you in now?
Girl Guides

20.If you are rich, what will you do?
SHOPPING! DONATE , INVEST .

21.If the one you are in love with held your hand, what will you do?
?

22.If the one you love rejected you, what will you do?
sad bah .

23.What is your favourite cartoon character?
Winnie The Pooh . Mickey .

24.What is your personality?
straightforward ?

25.Friendship or love?
Friendship .

26.Cookie monster or elmo?
Elmo

27.Are you using a laptop or a computer?
Com

28.When is your birthday?
25 Sept

29. Who is your idol?
My granddad .

30.Who do you wish to marry?
Too early to say le bah .

31.Do you like lollipop?
Like .

32.Do you own a diary ?
No .

33.Who/What are you scared of?
Big insects , G-H-O-S-T!

34.Who is your first crush?
OH IT'S A SECRET AGAIN .

35.If your face is destroyed, are you still happy?
I RATHER DIE!

36.Happy, stress, lonely or moody?
MOODY .

37.What is the BIGGEST thing you afraid of?
Afraid of losing my loved ones .

38.If you are going to die, who will you think first?
Baby .

39.If you are kidnapped, who will you call first to rescue you?
POLICE LUHS.

40.Who do you think you are?
~!@#$%^&*()
You wanna fight ah ?

41.Which do you prefer, bee or mosquito?
neither one of that .

42.Are you scared of insects?
Yeah . small ants no luhs .

43.If you saw ghost, what will you do?
SCREAMMMM!

44.There is a admire of yours and he won't die heart, what will you do?
idk .

45.If your clique quarrel, what will you do?
Be neutral(:

46.If you quarrel with your boyfriend/girlfriend and he/she want to break, what will you do?
What can i do .

47.Do you love soft toys?
Yes .

48.Do you think you are gay/lesbian?
No . Junwen ltr dump me :P

49.Have you ever entered the boy/girl toilet?
Yesh .

50.Who do you wish to be talking to you now?
God .

51.Are you bored now ?
No .

52.Are you blur?
Yes .

53.If you can have your hair dyed, what colour will you dye?
Purple .

54.Do you wear specs?
Yes . Mostly contacts .

55.What is your colour of shirt now?
White

.56.What brand of school bag do you use?
Zinc .

57. Have you bathed?
Yes .

58.How many people are there in your family?
5

59.What is your full name?
Lye Xiu Wen

60.Lock yourself in the room, or use a penknife to cut yourself?
use penknife cut myself .

61.How much of % do you give the boy/girl you are in love??
90%

62.Do you miss your ex?
no bah .

63.Are you scared of losing your precious things?
DUH!YES!

64.What is the blog url of the person you are in love with?
http://www.mylife-myst0ries.blogspot.com/

65.Do you hate him/her?
Who ?

66.Do you wish your mother was hugging you now?
Yes .

67.Are you sitting or standing now?
Sitting .

68.Have you eaten?
Yes .

69.How many person you blocked in your msn?
Nobody .

70.If your idol came to the country you live in, what will you do?
Hack cares .

71.If you get to shake hand with your idol, what will you do?
Shake hand and get a better look of him/her .

72.Do you have a pet last time or now?
Last time . Hamester .

73.Who is the last person you chatted in MSN?
Joan .

74.How many people got beaten by you before?
Many peoples .

75.If your boyfriend/girlfriend don't love you anymore, what will you do ?
what can i do .

76.You won a car, what will you do?
drove to east coast at night to see stars .

77.If your boyfriend/girlfriend cannot live more than a week, what will you do?
I don't know how to ans .

78.If you fall down, will you stand up by your own or ask someone to help you up?
Stand up . so paiseh .

79.How many TV(s) do you have?
2.

80.If this is your first date, what would you wear?
skinny plus shirts bah .

81.What is your e-mail address?
wennx33you@hotmail.com

82. Who do you think annoyed you the most ?
Bastards and Bitches that anyhow barks .

83. What school are you in?
Pei Chun Public School.
BPSS .

84.Do you like your form teacher?
Mrs Low only .

85.In school, who are you most scared of?
I don't know lehs .

86.Which instrument do you wish to have in your house?
Guitar .

87.What do you mostly do during weekends?
Going out with friends .

88.Do you prefer fever or flu?
Flu .

89.Do you prefer laptop or desktop?
Laptop .

90.What colour specs are you wearing?
White .

91.What fruits do you like most?
Honeydew bah .

92.What colour do you like?
Lazyxz type .

93.Do you prefer iphone or normal mobile phone?
iphone .

94.If your pants dropped at a crowded place, what will you do?
Can't imagine the situation .

95.Are you scared of chilli?
NO!

96.Are you wearing any accessories now?
Yes . My couple ring .

97.Do you like rainbows?
YES!

98.What subject you love most?
BIO!

99.If you were to present in front of the person you are in love with and the whole school, what will you do?
Blush lo .

1oo.Which do you prefer cute/chio/handsome boys/girls?
cute guys .

Tagged 10 bestie/frenx to do!:
1.junwenbaby!
2.kelly!
3.syvia!
4.van mummmmy!
5.denise
6.joan!
7.christy!
8.jiaqi!
9.lijia!
10.aisyah!

2009-06-26T13:00:00.000+08:00

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: pokka green tea
2. Last phone call: baby
3. Last text message: baby
4. Last song you listened to: 妥协
5. Last time you cried: forget le :/

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: yeah
7. Been cheated on: yes ):
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: no .
9. Lost someone special: yes .
10. Been depressed: yes . life is just like a rollercoaster .
11. Been drunk and threw up: no .

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. SKY BLUE
13. WHITE
14. NEON BRIGHT YELLOW .

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: yeah .
16. Fallen out of love: no .
17. Laughed until you cried: yes . i sot >.<
18. Met someone who changed you: yes .
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yup
20. Found out someone was talking about you: i don't know .
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: yup . my babbbyy of course !
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: who will go and count -.-
23. How many kids do you want to have: 0
24. Do you have any pets: i wanna a dog , Golden Retriever :D
25. Do you want to change your name: no .
26. What did you do for your last birthday: forget le
27. What time did you wake up today: 07.36 am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: talking to baby .
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: 16 years old & 18 years old !
30. Last time you saw your Mother: 1 hr ago ?
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: $$$
32. What are you listening to right now: Don't Go Away by By2
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yup .
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: $$$$ .
35. Most visited webpage: tom365 bah .
36. Whats your real name: Lye Xiu Wen
37. Nicknames: sotong , wen wen ..
38. Relationship Status: attached
39. Zodiac sign: Libra
40. Male or female?: Female
41. Elementary: Pei Chun Public School
42. Middle School: Bishan Park Secondary School .
43. High school/college: nil .
44. Hair colour: black .
45. Long or short: short bah .
46. Height: 155cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone? yes for last time .
48: What do you like about yourself?: -.- nothing much .
49. Piercings: 3
50. Tattoo: no . house alot fake one . haha .
51. Righty or lefty: right handed .

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: nil .
53. First piercing: p5 ?
54. First best friend: shixian and jocelyn (PCPS) .
55. First sport you joined: badminton ?
56. First vacation: malaysia .
58. First pair of trainers: ?

Right Now:
59. Eating: no
60. Drinking: no
61. I'm about to: scold someone .
62. Listening to: love story
63. Waiting on: com

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: no .
65. Get Married?: no faith in that .
66. Career?: BE A BOSS !

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: both
68. Hugs or kisses: both
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: ?
71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Both
73. Sensitive or loud: loud
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: no .
77. Drank hard liquor: yes .
78. Lost glasses/contacts: yes .
79. Sex on first date: CRAZXXYYY !
80. Broken someone's heart: yes .
82. Been arrested: no .
83. Turned someone down: no .
84. Cried when someone died: yes ,
85. Fallen for a friend?: huh ?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: sometimes .
87. Miracles: yes .
88. Love at first sight: yes .
89. Heaven: yes .
90. Santa Claus: no .
91. Kiss on the first date: yes .
92. Angels: yes .

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no .
95. Did you sing today?: no .
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: yes .
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: i don't wan go back .
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: christmas night .
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: yes .
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: ermm ya .

2009-06-26T12:35:00.000+08:00

hello .
my first post after my genting trp (:
ytd went to find baby .
and eat dinner with his family :D
quite super full okays .

TODAY MORNING .
wake up at 7plus .
i put alarm at 7 , don't know why 7plus then ring .
rush rush rush .
then aiya no mood then never go lor .
eat brakfast , mood damn lousy .
sleep back awhile and baby called me .
chat(:

OH . I LOST ALL THOSE PICS IN GENTING !
ALL THANKS TO MY BRO WHO ACCIDENTALLY DELETED .
KNN LA . DON'T KNOW HOW TO USE DON'T TOUCH LEHS .
FUCK IT .

2009-06-23T22:05:00.000+08:00

baby! just before u call me ,
i shall blog for you 1st (:
hahas ... i think u are enjoying
urserlf in genting now!
hahas play is good , but do
take care of urself in genting ok!
rememeber dun skip any of ur meal ok (:
i miss you baby! ehh , my dad is back from taiwan.
he bought thing for you too ! (:
hahas ... ehh , he bought a t-shirt ,
2 雨伞，and a poach for u! HAHAS !
I took the pic , i will upload (:
dun worry ,
tomorrow u will be back !
i am looking forward towards it (:

2009-06-23T00:32:00.000+08:00

hello all ;D
i am back again!
sorry ah .. she is still in genting ..
i shall do my best to help her blog daily (:
hahas , anw there is a good new to those who
miss xiu wen ! she is coming back on wednesday night,
do msg her at night (: hahas !
oh ya .. she is so bad la !
she spend so much money on her thing ,
den nvr buy thing for me !
baby so the bad one la ! argh!
hahas.. but i still like her .. hehes!
baby , be back soon! (:
i love you and i miss you!
hahas anw , she kinda lame ,
i help her blog still need to tag her ..
its like L-A-M-E!
ahahas

2009-06-21T23:32:00.000+08:00

hey all!
i am back !
Xiu Wen's dearest! hahas
hais .. i am worry abt baby now ):
she use her hp to call mi ,
its very very very expensive ,
i am afaid her dad will scold her or wad !
Argh! baby , i am waiting for her call now ,
she did online in the afternoon and tag mi! ;D
anw ... that all.
4 more day to her return!

2009-06-20T19:35:00.000+08:00

Just In Case i forget to blog for baby,
i shall blog now (: hahas
hey xiu wen's reader , xiu wen reach
genting at about 6.30 today ..
she is perfectly right now ,
dun have to worry about her ;D
oh ya .. i am her boyfriend ,
Mr Jun Wen ;D
i will be blogging on behalf of her
for this 5 day when she is oversea (:
Am i happy to do all this thing for her ?
i am , very happy , but i really wish she is in singapore ,
she can do it herself , normally at this time ,
i should be on phone with her bah ..
hais , i miss baby! , come back to me , faster !
anyway , xiu wen will be fine , dun have to worry abt her ,
that all bah , take care all ..
5 more days to her return ;D

2009-06-19T14:55:00.000+08:00

Ello (:

I'M GONNA AWAY FOR 5DAYS :D
GENTING , SHIOK !
I THINK I GONNNA GAIN MORE WEIGHT AT THERE .
GONNA CAMWHORE , CHAT , PLAY , HAVE ALOT OF FUN THERE .
MISS ME OKAYS(:
I BRINGING MY POOH THAT BABY BROUGHT FOR ME ALONG SO I CAN SLEEP SWEEEET (:

i gonna miss baby , my kelly mushroom , syvia , my vanessa mummmy
& my com .
Baby missing you is like having no soul,waking up and going throuh the day with emptiness in my heart.

2009-06-17T00:12:00.000+08:00

Quote :

Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind,
And therefore is winged Cupid painted blind.

2009-06-16T17:03:00.000+08:00

hushhh !

i just want to rant everything on my freaking blog right now .
i lost my wallet ytd . FUCK IT .
this whole month sibei suay . i swear .
i counted , $100plus flew away .
i lost that much money . the -.-

my ezlink card , my neoprints , my 1stmth card ...
I SWEAR , I GONNA KILL WHOEVER THAT TOOK MY WALLET .
I WANT IT BACK BADLY RIGHT NOW .

baby , 1 more day to first month :D

2009-06-15T01:27:00.000+08:00

Quizzzzz time !

All of the 14 people must do this quiz , unless he/she doesn't have a blog.
Write the name of 14 people you can think off the top of your head. Then answer the question.
(Not in order)
1.junwen
2.kelly
3.denise
4.joan
5.ziqing
6.meiyi
7.lijia
8.jiaqi
9.vanessa
10.aisyah
11.syvia
12.weiting
13.christy
14.liling

1. How did you get to meet 7(lijia)?
school time since sec1 .

2. What would you do if you & 13(christy) never meet?
i will die , cos she's my shopping partner , my bestie(:

3. What would you do if 1(junwen) and 12(weiting) date ?
TOTALLY IMPOSSIBLE . he tongxim to me(:

4. Have you ever seen 14(liling) cry ?
yes :O

5. Would 4(Joan) & 11(Syvia) be a good couple?
nope .

6. Do you think 11(Syvia) is attactive?
yeap . prettier without specs :D

7. What's 2's(kelly) favourite colour ?
sky blue ?

8. When was the last time you talk to 9(vanessa) ?
ytd night(:

9. What language does 8 (jiaqi) speak ?
chinese !

10. Who is 13(christy) going out with ?
eh single .

11. What grade is 12(weiting) in ?
sec2 .

12. Would you ever date with 10(aisyah) ?
nope actually .

13. Where does 5 (ziqing) live ?
bishan .

14. What's the best thing about 3 (denise)?
she's straightforward , daring , quickbrain , smart & feminine dressed .

15. What would you want to tell 10 (aisyah) now ?
wednesday you btr come to school for guides or else i kill you .

16. What's the best thing about 8 (jiaqi)?
innocent , pure , sporty .

17. Have you ever kissed 5(ziqing) ?
never . fake kiss yeshhh .

18. What was the best memories you have with 7 (lijia)?
ticker each other ?

19. When's the last time you're going to see 6 (meiyi)?
wednesday !

20. How is 14 (liling) & 12 (weiting) different ?
damn different .

21. Is 6 (meiyi) pretty ?
yeah . whitelady (:

22. What was the first impression of 11 (weiting)?
know her since young , cunning ?(kiding)

23. How did you meet 5 (ziqing)?
my friendliness (:

24. Is 1 (junwen) your best friend ?
yeshhh , but more than that okays :D he's my steady .

25. Do you hate 12 (weiting)?
why must i ?

26. Have you seen 4 (joan) on the last month ?
yups .

27. When was the last time you said to 3 (denise)?
idk lehs . tuesday's night if i'm not wrong .

28. Have you been to 5's (ziqing) house ?
nope . her house voideck yes .

29. When's the next time your gonna see 10(aisyah) ?
don't know . mostly sooner or later .

30. Are you close to 13 (christy)?
yup . BESTSHOPPINGPARTNER:D

31. Have you been to a movie with 4(joan) before ?
sad siol , no .

32. Have you ever gotten into trouble with 8(jiaqi)?
don't think so .

33. Would you give 2(kelly) a hug ?
of course .

34. When have you lied to 3(denise) ?
why should i .

35. Is 1(junwen) good with socializing ?
- pretty good bahs .

2009-06-14T14:53:00.000+08:00

Hello peeps (:
I'm here to blog again .
Satuday went to Expo for svc .
Baby first time acc me go . yeapps !
FIR :DD . I went crazxyyy like SOT ?
Jiovanna and me rush back to seats while
Christy & GekLing still in toilets .
superrrr highhhh mann !

FIR ROCKS TO THE CORE :D

Anyw , went Amk eat dinner .
Ohh yeahhs , pictur-ed w Van mummmyyy today :BB !
cabbed , Baby send me home (:

beloved pictures :

2009-06-11T16:35:00.000+08:00

ABC About You Questions:

A - AVAILABLE: attached(:
B - BIRTHDAY: 25 sept
C - CRUSHING ON: JUNWEN ; kiss me thru the phone .
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: ice milo .
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: my little bro .
F - FAVORITE SONG: starstruck
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: neither both of that .
H - HOMETOWN: singapore
I - IN LOVE WITH: junwen & my bed .
J - JUGGLE: no
K - KILLED SOMEONE: no but feels like .
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: -.-
M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: chocolate
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 2
O - ONE WISH: unlimited $$$$ to spend .
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: SHEN JUN WEN
R- REASON TO SMILE: happy :D
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: Boom Boom Pow
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 12pm
V - VEGETABLE(S): yup sometimes .
W - WORST HABIT: late , sotongness
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: yup , kneecap
Y – YOYOS ARE: ?
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Libra

THE CANS:
Can you dance?: somehow .
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: no luhhs .
Can you whistle?: no luhhs .
Write with both hands?: can . left one's SUPERRRUGLYY .
Walk with your toes curled?: can .

THE DO'S:
Do you believe there is life on other planets?: maybe bah .
Do you believe in miracles?: yeapps .
Do you believe in magic?: nope . magic shows yes .
Love at first sight?: nope .
Do you think there's a Satan?: huh .
Do you believe in Santa?: no .
Do you know how to swim?: yes .

THE HAVES:
Have you ever been on a plane?: yeah .
Have you ever asked someone out?: yeah (DUH)
Have you ever been asked out by someone?: yeah (DUH)
Have you ever been to the ocean?: nope .
Have you ever painted your nails?: yeah (DUH)

THE WHATS:
What is the temperature outside?: 35 above ? HOT .
What radio station do you listen to?: 933 .
What was the last restaurant you ate at?: MAC .
What was the last thing you bought?: pokka green tea .
Who was the last person you took a picture of?: JUNWEN .

CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out?: yup .
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: yup .
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: yes .
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: no .
Do you cry when you get an injury?: no , i'll laugh out loud .
Do certain songs make you cry?: yup , the song sha gua .

HAPPY SECTION.
Are you a happy person?: yeah .
What can make you happy?: friends , sweeeety actions .
Do you wish you were happier?: yes .
Can music make you happy?: if the music sounds rock .

LOVE SECTION.
How many times have you had your heart broken?: 3 times
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them?: yes .

LOOK AT ME.
What is your current hair color?: brownish
Current piercings?: 3
Have any tattoos?: no .
Eye color : bronze (:

2009-06-11T16:07:00.000+08:00

hello:B
weather is so DAMN HOT .
tomorrow maths retest , wish me goodlucks (:

i'm pro in making people angry .
hais .

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together .

2009-06-10T18:54:00.000+08:00

today went back school for e banner stuffs .
hais . is not really perfect leys . my superman haven't draw .
DAMN IT .
AAAAAAAAARRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS !

fan :@@@@ .
baby injured his shoulder ):
faster recover okkays !

&
Aisyah you throw me areoplane ! you good .

2009-06-09T16:34:00.000+08:00

Kiss Me Thru The Phone by Soulja Boy

Baby you know that I miss you
I wanna get with you tonight but I cannot baby girl
And that's the issue
Girl you know I miss you
I just wanna kiss you
But I can't right now so baby kiss me through the phone
(kiss me through the phone)
I'll see you later on
(later on)
Kiss me through the phone
(kiss me through the phone)
See you when I get home
Baby, I know that you like me
You my future wifey
Soulja Boy Tell Em yeah you could be my Bonnie
I could be your Clyde
You could be my wife
Text me, call me, I need you in my life yeah
All that, everyday I need ya
And every time I see ya my feelings get deeper
I miss ya, I miss ya
I really wanna kiss you but I can't
Six seven eight triple nine eight two one two
(678) 999-8212
Baby you know that I miss you
I wanna get with you tonight but I cannot baby girl
And that's the issue
Girl you know I miss you
I just wanna kiss you
But I can't right now so baby kiss me through the phone
(kiss me through the phone)
I'll see you later on
(later on)
Kiss me through the phone
(kiss me through the phone)
See you when I get home
Baby, I been thinking lately
So much about you
Everything about you, I like it, I love it
Kissing you in public
Thinking nothing of it
Roses by the dozen
Talking on the phone
Baby you so sexy your voice is so lovely
I love your complexion
I miss ya, I miss ya, I miss ya
I really wanna kiss you but I can't
Six seven eight triple nine eight two one two
678-999-8212
Baby you know that I miss you
I wanna get with you
tonight but I cannot baby girl
And that's the issue
Girl you know I miss you
I just wanna kiss you
But I can't right now so baby kiss me through the phone
(kiss me through the phone)
I'll see you later on
(later on)
Kiss me through the phone
(kiss me through the phone)
See you when I get home
She call my phone like
(da da dadadada da da dadadada da da..)
We on the phone like
(da da dadadada da da dadadada da da..)
We taking pics like
(da da dadadada da da dadadada da da..)
She dial my number like
(da da dadadada da da dadadada da da..)
Six seven eight triple nine eight two one two
(678) 999-8212
Baby you know that I miss you
I wanna get with you tonight but I cannot babygirl
And that's the issue
Girl you know I miss you
I just wanna kiss you
But I can't right now so baby kiss me through the phone
(kiss me through the phone)
I'll see you later on
(later on)
Kiss me through the phone
(kiss me through the phone)
See you when I get home

2009-06-09T14:20:00.000+08:00

我的华语不好。今天式一下用华语打博可。我看我还是放弃吧。alamak !

banner stuff haven't complete ):
hais .

2009-06-07T15:38:00.000+08:00

tags to reply :BB

jingting : RELINKED loveees !

van : mummmmmy , i miss you baddly . i know you'll be there support me . thanks :D

Denise : okays . i know .

Pearlina : Girl , thanks for yr encouragement . loves .

JunWenBaby : baby , love you (:

One word to describe this whole week : HECTIC
really very down . I'm very sorry . my attitude was really bad , i anyhow vent my angers , i threw my temper to my family , my friends and even my steady cos i was in a great pressue . SORRY .

anyw , friday had a enjoyable dinner with JunwenBaby & his family .
and then i went my aunt's house ton with cousins .
saturday , went East Coast and shopping with them .
weather was so SWELTERING HOT !
eat pizza-hut , slack and heart to heart talk with cousins they all .
wait for JunwenBaby's call until i turns sleep .
talked awhile then slept .
now , sunday . back home :D

ohh yes ! i found my stupid memory card !
& therefore i'm happier in someways(:

when baby ytd went for malaysia for one day ,
i found i can't live without his msgs & calls .
mood was so damn fuckeup
when i lost e necklance he brought for me .
damn so peckcek when i didn't receive any of his msgs .
i found out i need him in my daily life .
baby'cos you already occupied my mind .
cos you already enter my life .
i donn't know how i'm going to survive
when i going genting for 5days.
baby , miss you :D

2009-06-05T22:02:00.000+08:00

i am here to blog on behalf of xiuwen(:
guess who am i ? hahas !
i am Xiu Wen's boyfriend!
She ask mi to blog for her ..
she say she have a long day , a tiring one *heartpain*
went to meet mi after her CCA thingy .
head to eat dinner wit me and my family ;D
hahas ! send her back after that !
i am leaving for malaysia tmr alr D:
she say she wun miss mi ..
but i knw she will de (:
hahas .. baby, take good care of urself ok !
Love you ;D

2009-06-04T22:56:00.000+08:00

This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

2009-06-04T21:26:00.000+08:00

today = busy+bigbigheadache+stressed+hopeless

!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!!!!!@#$!@#$~!@#$!@#~!@ !!

FUCK IT . DAMN IT . HATE IT . KNS !

today long long day .
morning guides meeting , dance practice .
then find banner .
no enough $ to buy on spot .
ms kok our saviour said earliest tmr after 12pm e banner will be okay .
then nvm , fine .
was really short of time .
cos liling gna go back malaysia tmr for 1wk .
we went popular buy paper .
find , compare , blahblahblah .
really v fan lehhs .
i don't wish to care already .
got so fuckup man .

tmr have to chiong again ):
this few days i been really busy and neglect those that care & concern me .
sorry . i really getting flare up cos problems keep arising . while i was busy discussing banner deign thingy , parents keep calling me ask me why here why there .
no one even knows what i'm feeling now . banner stuffs gave me such a great stress , but no one really knows for what i'm so busy recently . cos i want everything to be perfect so put in alot of efforts in that . but why no one undst the pressue i having now . my dad even scolds me say why why i never ans his call blahblah . cos i was in school busy with my dance for the campfire performance , have to crack my silly brain for more ideas . thats why i can't ans yr call . still say what i don't ans yr call wna cut my line . you think the banner design so easy do meh ? if thats so easy , i wouldn't be so busy , i wouldn't get so fuckeup , i wouldn't sleep so late to get things done . since young , you don't undst whats the actual matter and just rant on me . enough ! you guys never evern think what happened if you guys in my shoe , what's the feeling ? how does it feels that nobody doesn't 体凉 you .

my problems i ownself settle now .
根本没有人会真真体凉我的忙，我的烦，我的无奈。

how i wish i can sleep forever . so everything will be gone .

2009-06-03T16:41:00.000+08:00

siao luhhs me .
just now invite peoples now i reopen to public again . hahaXD
spammers SHOOOOO .
don't have e rights to judge me cos you don't know me well .
i will just carry on with my life :DD

i don't like people force me do things that i dislike .
i wna freedom ! 可是白手起家不一容易呵！
i know i got a terrible , bad attitude now .
surroundings made me change till this way .

2009-06-03T14:55:00.000+08:00

I'm seriously tired all stuffs .
I don't even give a single damn .
I hate whatevar is going on now .
I don't want to hurt any anymore .
I think & reflects alot ytd night .
I don't know which one is a better choice .
I hate myself most now .
I was in a cofused state now .

JUST FUCK OFF . LEAVE ME ALONE .

2009-06-02T19:54:00.000+08:00

hey hey look look ! i wna e red version w705 :D

2009-06-02T17:23:00.000+08:00

我想死。what a stupid attitude i have .
even i can't tolerate myself .

2009-06-01T21:38:00.000+08:00

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